Mr Flash has just called and head & heart is all gooey - although that may have something to do with me just waking up too.
Oh god I miss him like crazy. He's promised he'll make time to see me this week. Work has just been mental. He even said come round tomorrow night when he has his daughter round - hemust miss me.
I keep trying to get over him and it's not happenning. He knows I'm back at the night job and I dont care. He'll have to deal with it. I'm not giving it up like last time if im never going to see him. i suppose its a way of waiting for him whilst still getting on with my life.
He said he'll call onight. God I hope he does. His voice, the thought of his arms round me, his kiss, being snuggled up in bed with him, making love to him in front of his open log fire (cliche but completely fantastic!), even standing at his back door having a cig just gets my heart pumping.
Oh why oh why does he have to have baggage and be busy all the time????!!!!! Why can't he just make a little more time for me and why can't I ever get over him????
I've only been up for an hour and already this day feels like it could be the most heartbreaking one of my life xx
2008-02-25 @ 19:16