Oh dear and here you all were expecting me to write that I had an amazing night and that for once there would actually be a fairytale ending. Alas no. Here's what happenned.....
Arrived at about 7.20pm looking extremely sexy - just a black babydoll and stockings under my coat. Got in and started with the passionate romantic kisses that Mr Flash is so perfect at. He went to get some wine and looked back at me just saying 'wow' over and over again (so far so good) and then shit fuck oh my god worse thing ever happens, he notices my leg (remember the four big gashes from last week??) I couldnt lie to him (he knew I'd done it the past) so I tried just saying don't worry they're nothing but he wasn't having any of it, and using his daughter as an excuse promtly turfed me out of his house.
Tried speaking to him but he didn't want to know. I can honestly say it's been months since Ive done that and it wouldnt be so bad except it was him messing me about so much that drove me to it this time (expertly pointed out by Lauren last night). I love that girl. She had a glass of wine and cigs waiting for me when I got home (I'd text her on the way) and we sat for a couple of hours just chatting. We came to the conclusion that if he couldn't love every part of me then the best thing I could do was walk away.
Sad news I know but life goes on and I will find a man who really loves me. In the meantime I have my friends, my family and my job. Relationships are such small part of life. The rest of my life is actually pretty good so I'm not gonna feel to down about it. Ive still got a smile on my face today xxx
2008-02-27 @ 19:04