guess who bloody called me last night. I can guarentee that anyone who reads my blog on a regular basis can. Yes it was his right bloody emotional manipulator himself Mr Flash. I was just cooking dinner for me and the boy and my phone starts. immediate thought was that it was lauren or my mum but there was his name. my heart skipped a beat. I picked it up and he said he wanted to apologise for being horrible to me last time time we spoke. I asked him if there was anything else " Well yeah. i miss you". Fucking cheek of it. He throws me out of his house and speaks to me like shit and then has the nerve to call up and say he misses me!!!

Ok yes I do miss him and I do love him still but do you know what? Fuck him. Had a big long chat with Lauren and came to the conclusion of fuck him. I said I will speak to him again and he probably thinks that I still want him (I did tell him I was seeing someone else btw) but do know what fuck him!!

The worst thing was when I told him I was seeing someone else he asked if I had told him the truth. By this he is going on about the cuts and the escorting. Well lets see I've been seeing the boy properly for all of ummm a week so guess what - no I haven't. I told Lauren this and her reaction was that he was using this as an excuse for me to go back. Basically trying to say that there was no-one else I could be with because they would never know anything. Well good. That was part of what made my relationship suck with Mr Flash. Ok I don't enjoy lying to people but the cuts are something that I need to feel totally comfortable about and lets be honest if I told the boy about the escorting it would be over and he'd end up hating Lauren for not telling him.

How dare he just phone me up out of no-where and mess my head up. I'm having the boy over of Sunday dinner and I've decided that I will not push things but certainly let things develop. He asked me to be his girlfriend (see he's soooo cute!). I told him it was a bit soon for labels but you never know. I just don't want him to think i'm saying yes as a way of getting over my ex because he's not. He's seperate and he's lovely and I'm getting to know him still (conversation is getting better lol)

Oh and he does have a brother but he's a right weedy chav ha ha ha.

I will let you know Mr Flash's reaction tomorrow!

xxxxx