Even in my last work appraisal, I was told by my boss that I was too nice and I must learn to say no occasionally. This also extends to my personal life.
How can I put this or do I even need to put it a certain way? By now I think you have all realised that I am completely predictable - especially when it comes to Mr Flash.
I went round. To begin with it was fine, we were completely just mates. He knew I was on call (more about that in a min because it was a very funny night!), he knew I am seeing someone. My first job came in for 8.30 and I said bye and told him I'd be back later. Wierd thing was as I went to say goodbye I really wanted to give him a kiss. just a little one on the cheek, like you do when you say bye to someone before going to work.
Anyways had the jobs and when I got back he was still up dresed in his x-mas pyjamas (he's bought us both a pair whilst we were still together. Odd but really kinda sweet). I walked in we said hello and just naturally kissed - just a little peck on the lips but it was sooooo normal. In fact so normal it was kinda scary.
We sat and had a glass of wine and then went upstairs. I changed into some pyjamas and slid into bed with him. We'd somehow decided that this wouldn't be a bad idea(!!!!!!) we were cuddled up and then he leant over and kissed me. Just softly at first and the more passionately. I know it's a cliche but it was as if time had stopped. For that moment I was lost in his arms again. For the next hour we talked and giggled, tickled each other and yes we had sex and like everytime I'd had sex with him before my body just melted into him.
He kept apologising but it didn't matter. I don't hate him for what he did even though I probably should. He also said that he would be happy being my 'bit on the side'. oh god I know i shouldn't but can I really have my cake and eat it? I'm pretty adept at hiding things. i've been an escort for months and barely anyone knows after all.
Back to the jobs though. I had two which was good since I've been doing alot of travelling for the day job and until I get my expenses back funds are pretty low. The first guy I saw at Bewleys hotel. I like it there. It's basic but not so basic that it looks cheap. The guy must have been about 60 and he was sleezy. He poured me a glass of wine and immediately startedd kissing me (not a good kisser in the slightest - far too wet!) and groping my tits. He undressed me and laid me on the bed. The good thing was he didn't really want me to do anything. He just wanted to feel me and perform oral. After he came he did get hard again but didn'tt keep it up long enough to have full sex lol. All in all despite being sleezy he wasn't too bad. Quite chatty which makes it less awkward.
And the second guy. He was one of my favourite type of clients. I met him at the flat just after 10. He'd paid for an hour but was gone in about 15 minutes. It's just too easy to guy worked up. I got him going with a bit of a blow job (he was asian and they always smell funny so can't do it for long) and my magic hands. Wham bam thankyou mam and another £150 in the back pocket.
And then back to Mr Flash's for some really lovin.....
We've been texting all morning. I feel bad because of my boyfriend but I don't love him. I love Mr Flash.
2008-04-15 @ 15:05