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by libbysblog @ 21 Apr. 2008 - 09:58:35

So the boy has found out - not everything. He just thinks Mr Flash has been in touch. He doesn't know that I've seen him or that anything has happenned. But the fact that I didn't tell him that he'd been in touch really hurt him and I can understand that.

I cried myself to sleep at 2am when we finally stopped texting. I love Mr Flash and he does love me but he'll never be able to commit 100%. And with the Boy? I think it's now a case of you don't know what yoou've got till it's gone. We haven't completely broke up and I hope we don't. I'm not saying I'm in love with him yet but I don't want to lose him.

Yes Mr Flash is exciting and he gets my heart pumping but he also makes me feel so weak and so used. The boy just makes me feel safe and secure and maybe for that reason I have taken advantage. The boy makes me happy and it's time to stop being selfish.

I need to use what little will power I posess to really once and for all cut myself off from Mr Flash. I have this feeling it's going to be like a drug addict coming clean. Mr Flash got under my skin in a big way and it's going to be hard to flush him out. But I have to stop being selfish and make sure everyone else is happy because it's the only way I'll be happy.


 
 

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slave2Victoriaslave2Victoria [Member]
2008-04-21 @ 14:37

dear Madame Libby:

congrats !!!

very few of us know of Your "boy", in the sense of "really" knowing everything about him, and i am one of them. what i do know, i have learnt from a similar experience in life, much at the end of my own journey into passionate waters. You see, i was once the "boy" in a torrid relationship with beauty so fine, that i'd do anything, give anything, for the temptress’s love. w/We shared 10 years of magnificent, yet turbulent time together. in the end, Her lust for the forbidden pleasures of sex devoured me and left me a puddle of whimpering mess.

now that i have rebounded into the arms of a caring and loving Woman, some seventeen months later, my days of joy still are shadowed with memories of....."what it could have been".....had Her thirst for lust been kept in check. in the end, all that there is, is nothing more than loving memories. broken heart(s) aside, life goes on and the memories never subside.

the "boy" and You sound so real to me and i wish You ever chance of success at developing a strong and loving relationship, built on trust and honesty. if it appears in time that he is not the one, of which You both desire, at least be honest and let him know that exclusivity no longer resides in Your heart. for now.....embrace each other with rapture of love. explore the joys of life and sex together. above all else....be honest.

unless You plan on ending the escort business altogether....which i doubt You will, be upfront with the "boy" and let him know that he is not exclusive. whatever demons that run through Your veins, there is still a loving, sweet Woman within. not a monster of deceit, but a lovely treasure of innocence and youth.

slave norma jean

BatsmanBatsman [Member]
2008-04-21 @ 16:35

Hop everything sorts itself out Lib,
Stay happy x

BatsmanBatsman [Member]
2008-04-21 @ 16:35

*Hope even

Tatiana84Tatiana84 [Member]
2008-04-21 @ 21:10

Hunny I know exactly how you feel. Stay strong, keep smiling!
XxX

Weaponsgrade235Weaponsgrade235 [Member]
2008-04-21 @ 21:40

You will find the scales of life will balance themselves accordingly..

Hopefully, with not too much trauma in the process.

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