I know some people who self harm, and I have told them that I don't really understand but want to. Not that my understanding would help them at all, but I try to listen.

And I am not totaly ignorant. I have a couple of big scars on my left fore arm that are so old now they have tanned and are hard to see. There are also some smaller ones on there as well. I just did it a couple of times and when I did it, I am not sure I understood why back then, even less sure now.

I think I may have just been after attention, I was only about 19 or something. But I don't think it is as simple as that with other people. Everyone has their own demons and reasons I suppose.

Anyway, not sure what the point of this reply is, but there are many people on this blog that self harm one way or another. So you may find people here a little more understanding.

Everyone has there own reason i did it to punish myself because i felt i was doing things wrong and upsetting people, stupid i know but to me at the time it made sense and i have to say i still get the urge everyday to carry on its very hard to break away from, well it is for me, as i say everyone is different.

I was exactly the same. I have this thing that I need to please people and at the time I just seemed to be constantly upsetting people and doing everything wrong (as it turned out I wasn't, it was just an evil boss making me feel that way). I do get urges to do it and have had 2 relapses since I sought professional help. Can't say I'd never do it again but I do find i can stop myself easier now

dear Madame Libby:

i am not going to condemn You, or any others that seek the solution to Their world through the very use of self mutilation and abuse, or from wallowing in Their own pool of self pity and depression. i will state for the record however, that i speak from a lifetime of personal persecution, some 40+ years. in fact, it stills continues to this very day.

like the writings from Your other friends comments, there is no determination that i can sort out, as to why my life has been consumed with such torment. i came from a normal, well adjusted family, never wanting for anything. in fact, i have mirrored life's pleasures by being able to always obtain and enjoy the best of what life has to offer. so why then must i suffer so? in truth.....there is no answer, no one solution to this hideous beast of torment.

Jocobite is correct..."Everyone is different", and Old-Nick is equally correct with....."Everyone has their own demons and reasons." i wish You every success Madame Libby at attaining Your realization as penned....."Can't say I'd never do it again but I do find i can stop myself easier now." i was never able to find me elixir of cure.

i am forever doomed to my demons and have fully embraced them as my greatest friends. they have made me impenetrable as it were, to the ravages of other people and there "crippling" advice. finely after a lifetime of singular wonderment, searching for an answer, that i never found, i have become one with my personal demons. i gave in and now i live within Her body.

i feel like i have been set free from my struggles of finding an answer. finally i am at peace being different from most others. i am not a monster, and i have an Owner that i serve and worship with considerable pride and humility. i have come home finally, now 59 years old and a lifetime wiser, clear in my mind that i am right where i belong.

i now embrace a twisted interpretation to...."What doesn't hurt You, makes You stronger." in striking contrast, yet amusingly parallel...."No pain, no gain", my life has become a blended compromise. i can not find or create a solution to my torment, so i have befriended it. there is finally peace through my acceptance of what i can not better. i believe that we are not all masters of our own destiny. there are greater forces out there that we know either nothing or very little about.

hopefully these ramblings will leave You with more calm and resolve, than puzzlement and despair Madame Libby. with matters of the mind, there is a serious shortage of "actual proof", that any psychiatrist can show another, conclusive proof of any cure. mental reasoning, like adoration of fine art, is still something best left to one's own taste and point of view !!!

Madame Victoria Marx Owned Property,
slave norma jean

hey. i just noticed this. i didnt see this news report thing but the idea of self harm being an attention seeking device is bullshit. I admit, i self harm, but am trying to get over it and i think im slowly getting there. but if someone hurts themselves to show off about it, that defeats the point to an extent. i do it because i feel like i dont belong, and im bullied mercilessly at school. All i gotta say is,i hope people begin to realise it for what it is, and that i can try and get some help myself if i need it. Thumbs up to you darlin

I just came across your blog (any friend of Old Nicks' is a friend of mine).

I've self-harmed too, and I didn't feel that it was for attention. From my own point of view, it was a kind of self-punishment I think.

I'm not even sure exactly why I did it, but I do know that at the time, I really felt the need.

You're not alone in doing this, and the lady above is right - vent through this blog instead of on yourself (especially as you have a child).

Take care

EC