Don't get me wrong I love my mum. Despite years of beatings (and I mean that - the last time she hit me I was 16. The first thing I did at 18 was move out) she does my head in.
It's that time of the month and like many females in the same situation I get ratty very quickly. Last night I was enjoying a quiet night in with boy watching a dvd and she called talking about money for my birthday (in 5 weeks!!) and for my holiday. We got arguing over interest rates - I pointed out that in 90 days unless it's a very large amount of money you're not going to make much more with an 8% interest rate as you are with a 5%. A few quid maybe. Big deal. Anyway like what happens with many phone conversations with her I snapped and put the phone down. And as usually happens she called me back. Not once but 6 times!!! Can the woman not get the idea that I don't want to speak to her?! I wouldn't mind so much but I told her why I felt crap and she didn't even believe me.
This is why I could never live back at home. The woman is just oblivious to everyone else. I sent her a letter when I went to uni detailing everything she'd done to me and how much she hurt me physically and emotionally. Her response 'well what do you want me to day?' Hmm let's see maybe 'Sorry?!' and I tried to tell her about the self harm. Her response 'pull yourself together'. This is why I am pleased to live 300 miles away and rarely see her.
What can I say she knows how to push my buttons. She4 does care for me and wants the best I know she does. But fucking hell she does my head in.
Rant over. Have a nice day at work everyone!!! xxxx
2008-04-29 @ 08:19