Every girl likes to be admired. From the most timid to the loud (and sometimes obnoxious) every girl likes to know that she is found attractive by someone - anyone. Even better is when that someone happens to be the guy that the girl is falling for big time.

Now when I first got involved with boy I have to admit I was more than a little sceptical and even called him 'just entertainment', but he's really surprised me. You know the whole 'don't judge a book' thing? well that so applies to him. When I first met him all I could think was dead end job, dead end mates and only interested in drinking. What I have in fact found is a hunky IT geek who likes sci fi, video games, romantic walks along the canal, is ambitious, wants to learn and recognises that although he'll always be mates with the lads he hangs around with (well he's known them since primary school) that there is more to life that drinks, drugs and girls.

Yesterday I was 'on call' not one job though due to the bank holiday, so rather than waste my entire evening I clocked off and went to see the boy. I was just wearing a very casual top and jeans but his first words to me as I walked through the door was 'god you look sexy!!' To say it made me smile was a bit of an understatement lol as shortly afterwards he had me upstairs pinned to the bed (don't you just love quickies!!)

It's only been 2 weeks since I last spoke to Mr Flash (even though it feels like forever). Everytime I get an urge to text him or email him I just try and think about how upset I'd be if I lost the boy. Answer? Extremely. I can't risk it. Plus I don't want to be using that L word around the boy with so little time between me and Mr Flash.

The night job will finish soon. Worked out I only actually need to save £250 more for my holiday and then another £500 to cover tax, MOT, etc for my car and then I'm out. If I save £100 from each job then thats 8 jobs to go. I think I'll miss it a bit. I'll certainly miss the money but I won't miss the lies, the staying in on an evening just in case a job comes in, the sleezy hands on me. I can't be asked with it anymore. I want to have fun this summer!!!

xxxxx