So anyway, not feeling so bad today./ Mr Flash ended up calling again late last night and we talked, and talked, and talked, and........... well we talked for a long time.
The basic jist was:
1) me having a go at him for making me feel used and pathetic
2) Him apologising
3) Me explaining that if he wanted any sort of friendship
that he would have to respect me (for a change)
4) Me learning that he'd spoken to some mutual friends of
him and his ex and finding out that there was a slim to
none possiblity of them two actually getting back
together (but I already knew that)
5) Him telling me that he loved me and me explaining that he
needed to get his head together and sort out his
relationship with his daughter because she is his
priority.
6) Me explaining that the chances of us being more than
friends was a massive IF not a when and that I'd proved
myself on countless occasions and that it was about time
he started proving himself - not just to me but to
everyone.
Wew left things on good terms and I didn't cry because I felt satisfied that I had stood up for myself and made him feel the prize twat that he is. I'm in work mega early today but feeling quite positive and that although there are going to be obstacles in my life I'm not going to let him be one of them.
Friends and lovers should complement your life - make it richer and more fulfilling. Thats what I try and do with my friends and thats what I expect in return and I'm glad to say that the few real friends I have do that atleast 99% of time (well no-one is perfect!)
Yep definately happier today.
xxxx
2008-06-09 @ 06:59